How it feels like to be at a crossroads and feel nothing...

Not going too well. Have either been sleeping from 9 pm or 3 am e past week. Still feels weird inside my brain. There seems to be so many things for me to do and no matter how i prioritise, i dun get to complete stuff. Must regain the discipline already. Time already running laps ahead of me and i still have yet to settle my nus application stuff before e NUS Open House this Saturday, which i most probably will be going down with victor.

Today had a nice talk with my cousin after helping me with his Blaster virus and his Maths. He actually forgot what i taught him about Indices! A bit "qi kek" sia, but still took the time and effort to explain to him patiently. He got an A for his common test, good student so I bo bian. Then from solving maths problem dunno how i got to talk to him about how people his age think, about sociology in general, about e history of maths, how problem solving is the essence of maths and technology and invention and life. Haha..enjoyed talking about cheem cheem stuff. Feels like a Prof. Imagine, PhD(talking cork and deviating from lessons) Cool sia. Anyway, had this thought flashed into my mind again. It's like i realised u never know how or what u can find out about a person unless you really get across to him/her and earn his trust in communication. I nv imagined my cousin had been thinking about such advanced things (they are philosophical, not technological) at his age. I was only thinking about soccer then! Must do a good job helping him to realise his fullest potential.

Till then...to the wish and dream of awakening..